Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Is it True Love? Please Help Me? long message.?

I dated a guy that lives 3 provinces away.(we went to school together in grade 1) He and i where very much in love, erflies, dancing around the room in happyness from just a simple little compliment. We also had webcam and we could talk on the phone for 10 hours straight without running out of things to say. We broke up due to the distance and in the summer he would barely be able to talk to me. We dated from Febuary-May. In june i got a bf that lived in town (Bob?). He and my ex were so much alike it scared me. We dated for 6 months, but i neve got the erflies or happyness from him. He ended up being abusive and scary to be around when he was mad. We broke up.. during our relationship, i talked to my ex, i couldnt not talk to him. I could talk to him about much more in depth feelings and he would care, Bob was all about himself and if u was upset, he wouldnt really care,and would just go on about his own problems. Also me and bob never had the same connection or chemistry as me and my ex. me and bob didnt cmmunicate very well. we broke up on new years eve. I talked to my ex (the first one, lets call him Jim) before me and bob broke up. I wasnt happy with bob. i in my heart wanted jim, i never did get over Jim. Then after me and bob broke up, me and jim have been talking alot, webcam and all, i see his face i get a warm feeling inside and shivers through my body and i smile. Thing is, he wont date me again cause of distance. my friend talked to him and he said it tears him apart to see me hurting and talking to me alone is hard cause he seen me go thorugh so mch and couldnt do crap. he also said he misses me and trys to hide it from me, regrets us breaking up but didnt knowwhat else to do at the time, said he sometimes things of us being together like we used to and thinks about me sometimes too. he said im special and have amazing talents and an awesome personality, and deserve so muc more in life than i have right now. (i got abused by almost all bf's and dad abused me and i cry alot due to depression, he is the only one who makes me truely happy) On webcam, if i smile, he smiles and i miss him so much. i cry atnight wishing he was here and mine. Im not over him..he is the only guy this has happened to me with..Im his first gf (im 15, he is 16) Im just wondering if it sounds like true love. I was dvistated when we broke up, i have never been that sad befiore, i cry thinkig about him. cause i want him so bad..i wanted him when i was with bob. Jim made me happy when i was sad and he understands me and i understand him..he is a part of my heart and always will be... Does it sound like tru love? does he sound like he is over me?

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